If I had a dollar for every time I spoke to a friend about the Experiment and found myself saying that I had done a video on the subject just a few days before, I would have, I don't know, about $50. And I would like to have $50. Wouldn't you? Of course. So, if I've said this to you, please send me at least a dollar. Well, I mean, you don't have to. But it would be an interesting experiment.
In other news, I question what the third phase of this all will be. But I'm going to get more specific about them in a day or so. Phase 2, however, is something I'll be exploring in the next few days with great clarity. And I will need your emotional support. Because it ain't gonna be easy.
In other news, I'm slowly movie titling the YouTube video journals to give one word encapsulations of what makes them memorable. Please tell me if that helps.
I keep contemplating the potential of this blog will be in the days between experiments. I certainly have thoughts on a million subjects in addition to Dark Shadows, but I still would like to find a way to anchor every thing in the point of view of that show as much as possible. So if you have thoughts, please send them my way.
In other news, I've been distracting myself enough that the loss of the show hasn't really sunk in. But I am fearful that it will. I dread that, and I also look forward to it in a strange way. Because it is inevitable, I'd like to get on with it so that I get used to life that way. I have some fairly deep feelings about the Josette and Barnabas and Angelique relationship, and it's all very political and academic. Worthwhile stuff, however I get the feeling that I am masking any moment of reckoning with my emotions regarding that relationship.
One of the things that I have found separates true fans of the saga with casual fans of the saga is the degree of their emotional investment and connection with that core relationship. It is an interesting bond that we share. I don't think I have it before the experiment.
I'm not sure if I've written about the experience I had the night after Angelique died. At least, I'm not sure I've written about it publicly. And I don't know to what degree I should. But — and I say this as someone who works in the arts — it was the most profound moment that an piece of art has ever given me. And I know that there are people out there who feel the same way. Are we better or worse for it? You tell me.